Desi Donations
By London Shah
“Desi Donations” originally appeared on the Young Adult Review Network (YARN) on April 26, 2016 (with a link to the published piece: http://yareview.net/2016/04/enchantedyarn-contest-winners/).
Secondhand hopes, re-incarnated hours
Shunned dreams are folded, in plastic bags thrust.
Layers of myself stacked—rainbow towers
Better reclaimed than gather desi dust.
Shunned dreams are folded, in plastic bags thrust
Deep down. Rose sari suffocates slowly
(Better reclaimed than gather desi dust),
Impulse to claim once more my heart’s Holi.
Deep down, rose sari suffocates slowly,
Well-worn Bengal-leather khussas burden.
Impulse to claim once more my heart’s Holi
Recover this sheer rose chiffon orphan.
Well-worn Bengal-leather khussas burden,
Breathe the sole… Bold warm scent, stirring power.
Recover this sheer rose chiffon—orphan
My will. Draped…I am the lotus flower.
Breathe the sole, bold warm scent, stirring power
Spellbinding; I am the swirling dervish
My will draped. I am the lotus flower,
Trinket of the Ganges—a prayer, a wish.
Spellbinding, I am the swirling dervish
Spinning by pillars, arches, Raj-red dome;
Trinket of the Ganges… A prayer? A wish?
Then I wish, and I wish, wish I were home,
Spinning by pillars—arches. Raj-red dome
Packed with sorrows, gratitude, lost pieties;
As I wish and I wish, wish I were home.
Spirits shun my loneliness, seek deities.
Packed with sorrows, gratitude, lost pieties,
Crammed carrier bags; translucent casks all.
Spirits shun my loneliness—seek deities.
Stranded, small now, my willful soul did fall.
Crammed carrier bags, translucent casks all.
Unwind the sari…it shrinks to the floor
Stranded, small now. My willful soul did fall
Once I sought unknown masks, lost craving more.
Unwind the sari…it shrinks to the floor.
I believed in Karma, re-incarnation
Once. I sought unknown masks—lost craving more,
Strange will, stranger hopes. New dreams had begun.
I believed in Karma, re-incarnation.
Kindred hues, burdened piles—bulge in plastic
Strange will. Stranger hopes, new dreams had begun.
Stored memories—aired offerings, homesick;
Kindred hues, burdened piles, bulge in plastic.
Scarred bundles carry testaments of old
Stored memories; aired offerings, homesick
Crossing boundaries, bearing tales untold.
Scarred bundles carry testaments of old
Layers of myself stacked—rainbow towers.
Crossing boundaries, bearing tales untold,
Secondhand hopes—re-incarnated hours.
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Desi: A person of Indian, Pakistani or Bangladeshi birth or descent who lives abroad.
Holi: Hindu Spring festival in honour of Krishna.
Khussas: Very old, traditional form of footwear in Pakistan/India, that came about during the Mughal Empire.
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Born in the UK to parents of Afghan descent, London Shah lives in south-west London – the most fabulous city in the whole, wide world. She wrote “Desi Donations” a few years ago. She is currently querying her first story, a science fiction set in a future underwater world.